I said this on Twitter, but it bears repeating for posterity on the ole blog: I’m unusually and happily optimistic right now. I have this vague sense that something good is RIGHT around the corner for me–what, I don’t know, but I feel like it’s there, just waiting–and I am fairly rolling around in the niceness of that feeling.
I have no idea how long the feeling will stick around, but I’m running with it for as long as it does. It’s made things so much easier this week: I bombed (like, hysterically so) a phone screen, but was able to laugh it off; I got a couple of rejections that just made me shrug my shoulders; I applied for a couple of things that feel like a stretch without breaking into a swirling mess of self-doubt. It’s been easier to pick myself up and go, “ok, this didn’t work, but what’s next?” I like it. It’s a welcome, WELCOME feeling.
It’s such a nice change, this lightness, this hopefulness, this OPTIMISM. I’ve spent a lot of the past few months feeling very heavy, and weighed down. It is hard being unemployed, to go from breadwinner to not that, and all the associated stresses, worries, and fears. And I don’t kid myself that I won’t feel that way again, or that this is magically the end of stress and worry. But *right now* I feel good. And light. I really do feel, for the first time in a long time, that there’s something good heading my way, and I’m holding on to those feelings with everything I have.No tags for this post.