Big Changes Small Changes

by Ginger on February 13, 2015

in Becoming Myself, Home is Where the Heart Is

A couple of weekends ago, we painted the entire upstairs. It’s something we’ve talked about for a couple of years now–the living room was a nice enough blue, but the dining room was this green that turned out WAY brighter & yellow/green than we had thought it would, and it just never was our favorite. But painting is such a production, you know? Especially in your living space. It ends up being this hassle and so we talked about it and never did it and talked about it and never did it.

But then, shortly after I started the new job, we just made the decision to go pick out paint colors. We were running errands anyway, and it was on our way home, and we knew about what colors we were looking at, so fine, let’s just go pick, maybe get a sample. And instead of agonizing over it, we picked a couple of colors that were close to what we’d been imagining, picked a finish, and went “eh, close enough.” And then, when we got home, we were originally just going to test a swatch in each room, to see how we liked it, and the next thing you know, there was plastic sheeting all over the living room & I was running back to Home Depot to get gallon sizes of the little tiny sample cans we’d picked up.

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There are a couple of things we probably could have done differently–the satin finish ended up a bit more shiny than I was expecting, and we probably could have planned the whole thing a bit better timing wise–but it’s completely changed the entire house & the way we all feel in the house. It’s bright and cheery and beachy and everything we had hoped we’d get from painting over the other colors (although DAYUM do I dislike that rug in the living room now. It’s on the list to replace).

It just took doing it.

There’s a lot of that going around, in big and small ways. I hung up hooks in the bathroom to finally solve a minor irritation about where our robes go, something that’s bugged me for a long time. We set up some systems we’ve talked about for a while to try and get a handle on all the stuff that goes with having a family. I’m trying out a new system for managing bills and errands and to do lists. I’ve sold a bunch of stuff I’ve needed to sell for months and months. I’ve started purging the closet for goodness sake.

None of this sounds like that much, but it was that stuff that just…piles up on you, you know? That you keep thinking “I should really just DO something about that” and then you never do, because, what, it’s inconvenient? Or you’re lazy? Or you’re burned out by the rest of your life, and so dealing with the stupid bathrobes is just one thing too many.

What’s amazing to me is that I can see, incredibly clearly, how much different my outlook on this stuff is, and it’s been since starting my new job. Some of it is that I’m home during the day, and so I see some of this stuff more than I did when I was at an office most of the day. But the reality is that it’s not about that so much as it’s about a change in mindset and outlook. I can see how much my stress was affecting my ability to do these kinds of things, to CARE about this these kinds of things. I can see how my stress played into my anxiety and how my anxiety keeps me from DOING. I can see how, and why, these little niggly details, big & small, just piled up.

And I can see, so clearly, how much of a 180 I’ve done. It’s apparent to me that stress and anxiety are the enemies of productivity, and of change. Which, yes, is a DUH statement if ever I’ve made one. But as I sit here and stare at my lovely new walls, and think about my lovely new hooks, and look at the changes, big & small, that I’m suddenly not just making but making easily, I’m grateful to be able to see the truth in that statement. And I’m glad, so glad, for all the changes.

Agirlandaboy February 13, 2015 at 5:37 pm

Wonderful! I need to do a lot of this myself. But first I need to find the time [that doesn’t cut into my post-kids-in-bed commitment to couch-bound sloth].

Sarah Anne February 13, 2015 at 6:40 pm

I LOVE the paint color SO MUCH. And can envision sout many bright, fun accents you’ll get to add if you want them!

I am so glad that there are these posting changes, Ginger. So, SO happy for you!

Tragic Sandwich February 14, 2015 at 8:20 am

Don’t you love it when little things make a big difference? And what’s the name of that paint color? It looks so happy! (We have Behr’s Butter Cookie in our living room, and six years later we still love it–it’s a yellow that’s not too bright, and it changes with the light throughout the day.)

Ginger February 22, 2015 at 1:19 pm

The color in the living room is Behr Aqua Wish, and in the dining room it’s Behr Summer House. They’re both so cheery!

Older mom February 14, 2015 at 8:02 pm

Love the colors, it all looks so serenely happy!

Joanne February 22, 2015 at 11:32 am

I love the beachy blues you chose! I’m glad that this year has started out so well for you! It’s nice to see you happy!

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