Work, and Stress, and Stuff

by Ginger on April 2, 2014

in The 9-5

So I had a crazy ridiculous stressful day at work the other day. And I can’t get into any of the details of it on my blog, but it basically comes down to not being valued professionally by several people/groups I work with, and I kind of hit my limit the day that 5 different instances of an insane level of ridiculousness hit me.

I finished my day off with a margarita the size of my head (you think I’m exaggerating here. I’m not), and going to bed at 9pm to try and sleep the stress and frustration away.

I woke up this morning in a better place…or, at least I wasn’t breathing fire anymore. I was able to head into work, sit down, and calmly and rationally do my job, and deal with all the ridiculous crap from the day before. Like I do every day. Even when no one notices how hard I’m working or how hard the work is or how much work there is. Even when I want to pull my hair out. Because it’s my job. And I’m a grown up.

But it sucks to feel devalued day after day after day. It’s one of my biggest sources of stress, and while I know that I should just “let it go” or not let it bother me so much, it’s harder some days than others to ignore the feeling of banging my head against a brick wall. It’s hard to let go, and so the stress builds and builds and builds until something like the other day happens, and all of that stress and tension has to find an outlet. Even if that outlet is a vat of margarita and 10 hours of sleep.

I’m taking a couple of days off next week, just to give myself some breathing room. I hate to use my precious pto days on something like that, but I seriously DO need a mental health break. I frankly would have taken the days this week if my entire staff wasn’t on vacation already. I’m hoping a couple of days to disconnect will help me…reset a bit, even if all I do is putter around the house in my pajamas while the kid is at school.

When I’m given the chance, I really enjoy the work I do. Maybe a mini-break will help me enjoy some of it again with a little less stress.

Jennie April 2, 2014 at 10:07 pm

I think we’ll have some things to talk about next month. (I need to email you about dinner/a show!)

april April 3, 2014 at 5:22 am

Mini-breaks really do help. I never used to take time off, but lately I’ve been taking a day here or there and it has been life changing. My work is not my life, and I enjoy it more for that. I’m sorry things are tough at work. Hugs to you, friend.

Laura Diniwilk April 3, 2014 at 7:58 am

YES, this. Our group works harder than most in the company, but we were hit hardest on the last round of layoffs and we don’t get the commissions or bonuses handed out to the sales people (yet our work allows the sales people to do their jobs more effectively). Sometimes it seems like the next promotion is never coming and that no one will stick their neck out for me, despite working my ass off. BLEH.

I’m sorry that you are feeling stressed, but I can guarantee your mental health days will be a huge help. You should get that massage we never got in Charleston – you deserve it!!!

Bree April 3, 2014 at 4:06 pm

When your job pushes you to the point of desperation it really is wise to back off and take mental health days—–set aside a few minutes on day 2 to list the pros and cons of your job. I’m not sure how long you’ve been working at your present company but it also helps if you look back at your history there and how successful and rewarding you have felt—the promotions, annual reviews, etc.. There does come a time when you need to look at your present position and to the future/your future with the company.
It has been a few years since I’ve worked/retired, but I clearly remember times when I was where you are these days, in my case I was taking a medical leave and was invited in to one of the bosses for a chat, as it turned out it was the most rewarding moment in a very long time! We had a very good conversation and before leaving his office I was no longer under that black cloud–rather I was now promoted to a position I had been interested for ages. It turned out that there were people noticing me and my job performance and the situations that were taking place as well. Sorry your having to go through all this—I wish you find the answers and are awarded the credit you deserve.

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