I get in this weird, peculiar headspace, ohhhhhh, just about once a month. It’s this combo of melancholy, and lonely, and bored, and frustrated, and hyper empathetic to the world around me. And whatever, I should know to just roll with it for a few days, shove some cookies in my piehole, go to bed early, and wait for it to pass.
But man it seems like the last few days have been intense out there in the world where news happens, in ways that mean I need to avoid comment sections even more than usual. In general, I’ve spent the last few days just shaking my head at the world. These are making it hard for me to just roll with the weird in my head, because I’m biting my tongue/sitting on my hands quite a bit, and when I do that, those thoughts I’m holding back (for not wanting to start an argument, get into it with strangers, because I recognize that there’s no arguing with some people, or simply because I don’t have anything to say that really adds to the conversation or that a million other people haven’t said better than me) still end up rattling around in my head. That means I have lots of thoughts on racism, sexual assault, death, addiction, xenophobia, sexism, rape culture, and homophobia bouncing around together, all jumbled up in my already funky mental space.
Good times, is what I’m saying.
Luckily, I have a husband who will listen to me rant, or ramble, about all this stuff, which helps. As does not reading or watching the news, not reading the comment sections on Facebook (I already avoid the comment sections on most websites. Not blogs, because I don’t read many blogs where the comment sections get heated), staying away from Buzzfeed/Gawker/Jezebel/etc. articles and headlines, and making sure that the radio station in the car is blasting music I can car dance to at all times. Playing with my kid, painting my nails, experimenting with my makeup, and watching YouTube beauty videos are also good ways to try and avoid the yuck.
And cookies. Shoving cookies in my piehole DOES help.
Anyway, enough of my moping. Instead of continuing to focus on the negative in my head, how about I share some things that have made me smile recently?
Cliche maybe, but this song blasting loud so I can sing at the top of my lungs. (The video is pretty fun too).
This is an ad, yes (h/t to Cloud for the original link), but it makes me cry happy tears.
Painting my nails a funky color/texture. Fun.
There’s an element of sadness in this one because it hits too close to home, but it is still funny.
This sounds entirely too true.
This pretty much made my day.
And then, because it can’t TOTALLY be avoided, some Buzzfeed stuff that made me smile:
So…anything been making you smile lately?
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