Wishin’ & Hopin’

by Ginger on September 14, 2013

in Becoming Myself

There’s not a lot I pine after, in a big grand “I WANT THIS FOR MY LIFE” kind of way–one of the nice parts about being happy with a somewhat unassuming life. I don’t think of paths not taken very often, because honestly the divergences in my road have been more like veering a different way than a completely obvious turn.

That being said, there is ONE thing that I have wanted for a very long time, and it kind of bums me out that at 34, I still haven’t accomplished this one thing I’ve wanted since I was at least 16 or 17:

I desperately want to go to Italy.

As I said, I’ve wanted to go since I was at least 16 or 17, and probably earlier than that. And there have been a few occasions where it ALMOST happened, but something always ends up happening to push it back into the realm of daydreaming rather than planning (money, pregnancy, job, you know, little things).  Part of it is that, when I go, I want to GO and GO BIG. I don’t want to do a quick, cheapie trip, or just hit one city. No, I want to be able to go and spend some decent time (at least a week) there, and see at least 2 or 3 different places. I don’t want to stay at a hostel, and I want to be able to eat as much as I want. So, you know, I know that I’m putting my own limitations on the trip in a lot of ways.

But even so, it’s somewhat frustrating to have had the same ONE thing I want for at least 18 years now, and feel sometimes like I’m no nearer making that happen now than I was when I was 16. And that’s not entirely true–N.C. & I have been talking and doing some thinking and there is a pretty big anniversary happening in a couple of years that may be our shot–but it sure feels like it sometimes.

But someday. Someday we will make it happen, and I will find myself sipping a limoncello in some piazza somewhere, and thinking about how amazing it is when your wishes finally come true.

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Prompt from Bring Back the Words, Week 13

Wendryn September 14, 2013 at 9:03 pm

Whenever you go, I look forward to reading about it! 🙂 Life gets in the way, but if you really want to do something you’ll get there eventually. Good luck!

Single Mom in the South September 15, 2013 at 5:19 am

I’ve never even had a passport… must get on that!

Cherie Beyond September 17, 2013 at 8:14 am

You’ve got a couple of years before this anniversary? Time to get yourself a travel account. Automatically transfer some completely unnoticeable amount of money–like $20 a week–into it. Any unexpected bonus money that turns up (Christmas, yard sale money, whatever) goes in as well. In a few years, you’ve got that baby almost paid for and then you have no excuses.

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