I miss my brain.
No, really. I miss the words that used to live in my brain. The thoughts I used to have. The ideas that used to occur to me.
All that seems gone now, sacrificed so that I have a brain for my job. Which, I NEED to have a brain for my job. I do! It makes doing my job much easier when I am able to think. And I have to do that a lot these days. But I just kind of miss having any brain power left for…not my job. For myself.
I miss writing here. I open up my laptop and the words just don’t come. The ideas don’t come. The thoughts are hidden somewhere. I miss it. I miss you guys and the conversations we used to have.
I miss conversations offline too. I don’t feel like I have much to add most of the time. Unless, again, it’s about work, then I’ve got words and words and words galore.
I miss sitting in my car and doing mental exercises of coming up with posts or stories. I miss that feeling when you’re able to latch onto an idea, and then articulate it. I miss the flow of words, when they just pour from you, racing to get out of your fingers.
I know no one wants to read yet another post about how I have no words, no ideas, no thoughts. No one wants to read on your blog about how you don’t blog anymore. But it feels like an ache to not have this outlet be…this outlet. I miss my brain.
You know what, screw this noise. I’m TIRED OF THIS. And I MISS THIS PLACE. And damnit, I need to do something to get back in the swing of things and get MY words back. So how about a little off the cuff challenge?
I’m going to post every day in the month of May. (eek)
If you have anything you’d like me to write about, put it in the comments and I’ll do it this month. I’m going to aim for at least 300 words every day. EVERY DAY DO YOU HEAR ME SELF? 300 words is not that much, and if it gets my brain going again, well, then good. I’m going to aim to write every day, and respond to comments every day, and get this place back.
Operation #bringbackthewords is on.
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