Time for the annual year-in-review post (originally taken from Linda, like half the internet), which always serves to remind me of how crappy my memory is, while also serving to remind me of how good my life is. Fair trade off.
Anyway, let’s get to this beast. (Let’s also note that there are several slight variations of this going around. I don’t even know what version I’m using. Just go with it.). (Also, what is with me and the parenthesis lately?)
1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
Got 6 new teeth. Was diagnosed with anxiety/depression. Went to therapy. Had a blog post go viral. Bought myself a fancy laptop rather than being practical with the money. Went to The Blathering. Went to Legoland (yes, we live 5 minutes away and this was the first time we’ve been). Didn’t stress over Christmas gifts.
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Well, if you look at my 2012 To-Do List, you’ll see that I basically failed, rather spectacularly. In retrospect, perhaps 40 items was a little ambitious? I mean, I accomplished some of the things on there, but it was under half. That’s not such a good showing.
HOWEVER. I also put out two “themes” for the year, and in some very, very weird ways(totally separate from what I originally intended), I feel like I totally did these: Get Your Shit Together & Be Where You Are. That makes me smile.
I’m planning on doing another to-do list, yes. It will be much more reasonable however. I’ve learned this year that I expect too much of myself.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
There were a bunch of babies from friends and family.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I’m sad to say, yes, I lost my grandmother this year. I think of her often.
5. What places did you visit?
Las Vegas, New Orleans…that’s about it. (Man I want to change this one year).
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Some clarity at my job would be really nice.
7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I’m never really able to remember dates themselves (I have a terrible memory for that stuff), but..
The day my husband and I discussed me seeing a doctor & the day I got my anxiety/depression diagnosis both stand out PRETTY strongly. The day(s) that my post went viral, but the first two days in particular as they were two of the more terrifying days of my blogging career. The day my grandmother died. The day of Newtown. For obvious reasons.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Honestly, my biggest achievement was dealing with the anxiety & depression thing. I look back on this year and it is SO different than last year, and my attitude about myself, and life, and the world is SO different, and that is a HUGE thing.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Take a look at the to-do list and take your pick? Ok, maybe not. If I had to pick the biggest, I’d say that in learning to take care of me, I probably ignored other relationships more than I should have.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Colds, stomach flu, pulled muscles…the usual.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My ticket to The Blathering. Here’s the thing I’ve come to realize about that. I adored the entire trip–it was such a wonderful weekend with wonderful women and wonderful food and…it was wonderful. But the bigger reason it’s the best thing I bought all year was because it was a really tangible way of showing me that putting myself first occasionally, of doing things because I want to, really really is worth it.
The next best things: my new teeth, my laptop, and books.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My husband. He was not only with me every step of the way this year, he was there encouraging me. He deserves all the gold stars.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Everyone who got nasty/ugly/hateful during any of the heated moments this year: political, cultural, social.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Daycare, rent, my commute, paying off bills, my new teeth.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Getting a blog recognition thing I secretly coveted. The Blathering. Getting a pretty nice bonus. Paying off almost all our debt. Christmas with my 3 year old.
16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
Somebody I Used to Know & Call Me Maybe. They may not be the best songs, but DAMN if they weren’t everywhere.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier
b) thinner or fatter? Thinner
c) richer or poorer? Richer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
I really am lamenting how little writing I did here this year.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Gotten worked up over Facebook posts. Read the comments on political articles. Driven up and down the 5.
20. How did you spend Christmas this year?
With my boys, my mom & her husband at our home. It was lovely.
21. Did you fall in love in 2012?
With my husband, all over again multiple times.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
Game of Thrones in the spring, Sons of Anarchy in the fall.
23. What did you do for your birthday in 2012?
If I recall correctly, I slept in, we went and had sushi & then ice cream, and I spent the rest of the time relaxing. Pretty good.
24. What was the best book you read?
I’m actually planning a post on my favorite books from the year, but I’ll tell you three of my absolute favs: The Fault in Our Stars, Game of Thrones, The Night Circus.
25. What did you want and get?
A Nook Simple Touch w/ Glowlight, lots of fun new makeup and nail polish, a trip to New Orleans, more enjoyment of my kid, lots of books, and a new outlook on me and on life.
26. What did you want and not get?
Clarity and help at my job, some career direction, a steam mop.
27. What was your favorite film of this year?
I really did love Hunger Games. And…I can’t remember what other movies we watched this year. (There’s that memory thing…)
28. Did you make some new friends this year?
I like to think I came away from my trip to New Orleans with some new friends.
29.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I’m gonna be blunt here: less bullshit on Facebook.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Simply casual with a surprise of glamor or “Jeans and sequins”. I finally feel like I’m coming into some semblance of personal style, and apparently one of my things is that I think sequins are for any time, any day. I wear jeans to work most days, but I also wear sequins to work (either in shoe or shirt form) 3-4 days a week. I kind of love that about my style right now.
31. What kept you sane?
Wellbutrin. And my husband. And my therapist.
Oh, you wanted the non-technical answer? Reading. Blogging. Friends from the computer. My husband. My kid’s giggles.
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
My devotions change often, depending on what I’m currently obsessing over. But there’s enough of my love to go around.
33.What political issue stirred you the most?
There were a few (though you wouldn’t know it here, I really do try to keep my politics to myself online), but the one that I probably spent the MOST time getting hand flappy about was marriage equality. I think this will be something that we look back on in the future and shake our heads that this was ever something that wasn’t allowed. (I have way more feelings than that, but that’s the gist of it).
34. Who did you miss?
I’m stealing Jennie’s answer, because it’s so perfectly true: “If you don’t live in driving distance, I miss you.”
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
I said this on Twitter the other day, and I really mean it:
The more you put yourself first, the easier it is to continue doing so.
This year was, rather selfishly, the year of me. The year of allowing me to be first. The year of figuring me out. The year of giving me permission to say no, or not care, or make myself at least AS important as other people. It felt really really wrong for a really long time. But doing it has made me a happier, saner, more grounded person. It’s really easy to STOP giving yourself any attention, and once that slide starts, it’s really easy to end up at this place where you don’t even realize you’re always at the bottom. But if you start trying to put yourself first, you can develop the “muscle memory” to keep it up. And the more you do it, the easier it gets. And honestly, we all deserve to be first, at least some of the time.
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