This week has been VERY up and down at work. I’m working on a million projects, pulled in a million directions, and with ever dwindling resources. I’m exhausted is what I’m saying. I’m about *this* close to burning out. If I can just hold out until November, 1)things should lighten up a little on the deadline front and 2)I get some time off for a variety of reasons. I can do this. I can hold on for another two weeks.
Related: I am incredibly tired of people treating me like a moron. Here’s a hint kids, I know my business. I’ve been doing this for 10 years, and I’ve been in THIS job almost 5. I know what I’m talking about, and if I don’t, why don’t you let ME tell you that. I’m not afraid to say I don’t know something, but it drives me INSANE when people assume I don’t because of (fill in the blank bullshit reason).
On a happier note, I am getting a bonus this year, so YAY! It’s my first year being bonused, and I have to say that that check will come in crazy handy. I am, however, having a really hard time not just BUYING. EVERYTHING. I. SEE. I’m not normally a shopper, and we rarely have this kind of unplanned money (I knew I was eligible for a bonus, but given how the business has been the past few years, I did NOT plan for a bonus to actually happen. Happy surprise!), and it is rare for me to just want to buy buy buy buy, so this is an interesting place to be in. The current plan is for me to set a portion of the money aside to do what I want with, but have the majority of it go to debt & savings. Like grownups.
But I’ll admit, I kinda feel like the money is burning a hole in my pocket.
My kid is both awesome and a pain in the rear end lately. I am finding 3 to be So! Much! Fun!
But man, it is also Incredibly! Loud! And! Volatile!
I really wish I could pack all of my internet friends up and move you into my neighborhood. Think of the fun we’d have after all the kids were in bed/chores were done/work was finished! Everyone come over to my place for beer & guacamole on the patio!
I sometimes feel like I’ve lost my words since I started working on my anxiety & depression. In reality, I think I’m just more and more aware of how many people I KNOW who read this, and take their feelings about my sharing here into account before I write anything. My problem with that though is that I’ve always been an “off the top of my head” blogger, and so when I have to sit with something for a while (whether that’s to talk to other people about it first, or to mull over how to write it given the readership), I usually…lose it. But I will admit that I do think some of it is because I’m not as anxious as I was–working on that in the real world has meant I don’t need to work through it here as much, if that makes sense.
Which makes me wonder if I’m just really boring if the fact that I’m working on my mental health has had the side effect of taking away my ability to find things of interest to write about.
Some days I think I’m entirely too nice for the internet, and then some days I think I’m entirely too snarky to think I belong anywhere BUT the internet.
TGIF my friends.
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