I don’t know whether it’s the time change, what with the darkness and the ridiculously bad traffic since everyone is now driving in the dark and the leaving the office in the dark and oh did I mention the dark (as an aside, why does a one hour time difference feel like 4.5 hours at 7pm?), but I’ve been…blah. Tired and listless and irritable and snippy and uninterested in…stuff. TV? Meh. Books? Meh. Work? Meh. Anything beyond just sitting here slack jawed? Meh.
But if I think about it, it’s been going on longer than just a week. I’ve kind of felt like this for a while. Maybe it’s stress (it’s probably stress). Maybe it has to do with the season changes (it probably has something to do with the season changes). Maybe it’s frustration (it’s probably frustration). Maybe I’m just wallowing (I’m probably just wallowing).
I’ve been trying to do some things to see if I can feel less blah. I can’t do anything about some of the stress or frustration or the season changes, but I’m hoping to can help myself out some other ways. I’ve been trying to drink more water. I’ve been trying to work out 3 times a week. I’ve been trying to go for walks at lunch, or at least go outside. I’ve been trying to go to bed a little earlier. I’ve been trying to dance in my kitchen with my kid even when I don’t feel like it. I’ve been trying to breath more and swallow my frustrations less.
We’ll see. So far, I’m still blah, but between the time change, the news, the weather changes, and work stuff, maybe that’s not surprising. I probably just need to give it more time. But it’s hard to keep working on that stuff when I’d rather just sit here. Slack-jawed. And meh.