Is there anything harder than writing about yourself?
I mean, I know I’m a blogger, I write about myself all the damn time. But that’s always in very casual, chatty kind of way. Today though, I sat down to attempt TWO very specific, very NOT casual, very ME centered things.
The first is the about page for this site. I haven’t changed it in…um…since I started blogging over two years ago. Oh, I added a bit about becoming a mom, and changed my age to 30 something, but other than that, the about page is the same as it’s been since the very first day this blog launched.
To say that it’s not quite an accurate reflection of where this blog has gone in that time is pretty clear–I don’t really write about many of the things at all on the about me page. So, it’s time to update it. But I think most bloggers realize that the about page of their blog is one of the hardest things to write–it’s basically marketing you and your blog, so you have to be clear and concise, but have your personality and not be boring, while encapsulating your online presence. It’s tough. I’m…still working on the new one.
The second is from an idea that’s been floating around the internet, but that I specifically saw over at amoment2think–defining my blog, my online identity, my brand…in one word.
Ok, go ahead and laugh. I know I’m a wordy wordy little blogger, not known for my brevity or concise language. I very often use 20 words where 3 will do, and so I fully expected that this exercise will be difficult. But I thought that, combined with the about page exercise, this would offer me a chance to really define this space and figure out WHO I am online. So I sat down and started thinking of words.
And I basically hit a wall. My list started out ok, beginning with the words in my banner: Quirky, Introspective, Rambling. I moved into other words: conversationalist, verbose, chatty, individual, unique, unexpected, genuine. But none of those felt quite right, and then I started to feel a little self-conscious about the whole exercise. That’s when the list quickly devolved: mom, normal, average, brunette, ninja, gingersnap. And….that’s where I left off, with the silly words eclipsing the serious.
The hardest part about the whole endeavor is that I don’t know exactly how to encapsulate this space. I think that RambleRamble is, in part, a way of searching for myself. A place to question my thoughts and my decisions. A place to explore the mundane and the not so mundane in my head to come up with…myself.
What RambleRamble has taught me, and has given me, is that my voice and my thoughts have as much merit as anyone else in the world. Digging deeper into myself is allowed, and worth it. Because there’s more to me than just the average woman I always assumed I was. I can talk about about Twitter and my shitty shitty commute, but I can also talk about my feelings on being a mom and my opinions on modern parenting & societal dilemmas. I can be silly and serious. I can be all aspects of me.
But how do you take that lesson and the internal searching and the exploring, and combine it with the silly and the mundane and the random and sum all that up in a word? In a paragraph? In a way that makes sense, and also entices people to stay and read more?
I guess I have some more writing to do.
Tags: Blogging & Social Media, NaBloPoMo