Memories of sleepless nights

by Ginger on April 27, 2010

in Mom Thoughts

Today was one of those days. Jackson hasn’t been sleeping well the last few nights (HA understatement), which of course means momma isn’t sleeping. I’ve overslept the last two days, I’m emotionally volatile, and I have no mental capacity for anything. At work I burst into tears twice, snapped at my bosses boss once, and had a screaming fit at my phone (after the offending party had hung up). Seriously, one of THOSE days.

I obviously don’t deal well with lack of sleep. Which is hysterical given that I have an almost 8 month old. But Jackson has been, for the most part, a really good sleeper something I try not to say out loud or on the internet too often for fear that the universe will laugh and try and prove me wrong). So when he doesn’t sleep well, usually because he’s teething, going through a growth spurt, or about to learn something new, it hits me like a ton of fucking bricks.

The only good thing I can find about this sleeping issue Jackson is having is that in exchange for no sleep, I get a little cuddlebug. Jackson isn’t a cuddly kid–he’s got too much to do, see, and get into thankyouverymuch momma! But, when it’s the middle of the night and the kid is fussy (read: screaming like a banshee), he lets me hold him. He’ll put his head on my shoulder and twirl my hair softly in his hand and just hold on.  Occasionally he’ll push away from my shoulder, so that he can look me in the face, and he’ll just stare, searching my face for…who knows what. When he finds whatever he’s been looking for, he’ll lay back down on my shoulder and start twirling my hair again. He’ll stay that way as long as I let him.

So yes sleepless nights suck, days after sleepless nights suck more, and a fussy kid can be hard to handle, but those moments with my baby will stay with me as some of my most precious memories.

sleepyjane April 28, 2010 at 1:32 am

Sorry you’ve had such a hard time! 🙁 Not getting enough sleep never fails to make me very irritable.

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks April 28, 2010 at 10:24 am

I swear, if we ever have kids, I’m going to put an adult bed in their room right from the start. So, for those sleepless nights, one parent can go and cuddle while the other actually gets sleep! It’s sweet, though, to have those moments with Jackson. I’m pretty sure he won’t grant them to you when he’s a teenager.

Perpetua April 28, 2010 at 10:31 am

We’ve been having sleep issues lately, too. We always have to some extent, but lately he’s been freaking out at 1 in the morning for no reason.

I forgot bad the sleepless nights were until we started having them again. Cuddling is pretty much the only thing that can come close to making up for it. 🙂

Ally April 28, 2010 at 11:36 am

I’m not sure I would deal with sleepless nights very well! At least you have a cutie to cuddle you through the exhaustion. 🙂

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